I went out to dinner with my mother pizza which was delicious. As we were diving in to maybe one to many slices the topic of family came up and we just began harmlessly talking about my childhood. Who was the worst behaved, who had the worst temper, and who was the biggest baby. You know all I was trying to get all the dirt on my siblings. Pretty much just waiting for her to say I was the best child ever. If you could guess or know me that did not come out of her mouth.
I asked her to describe my personality and she began to tell me she thought it was crazy how far I have come from my past. How much I have changed. She said I was now outgoing, was now strong, and independent. I am like okay okay keep telling me great things. Then she said something that made me really perk up, she said, “I know that everyone around you can see it but I am not quite sure if you can see it on the inside of you yet”. And in my head I am like dannggg pump the breaks. I was not ready for that heart check.
But it sat with me over dinner and I tried to really dig and think Heather can you honestly say you feel these things to your core? Because I know that so often we put on this facade. I know I am not the only one who is guilty of this. That sometimes we think if we can make everyone else believe and see that we are okay, then we are fine. That if we display it enough then it will have to happen right? We work so hard on our outward appearance and what we show in front of others rather than work on what is really going on in the inside. We think that maybe if we can ignore the reality behind closed doors we can handle it. If we can just fill up our days with stuff, people, and just become so busy that we can hide what is really going on inside, all is well. Not even just hide it but not address it at all. If the enemy can not defeat you in an area then he will most definitely try to distract you with things.
TIME MANAGEMENT IS IMPORTANT. How is your heart? How is your time with God? How is your peace? Because scripture says, “Guard your heart above all else,for it determines the course of your life.” Are you being a good Stewart of guarding your heart? I know that I have struggled with this for a long time. I am I good at hiding things. Hiding things makes me feel much more secure. But Luke 8 says, “For all that is secret will eventually be brought into the open, and everything that is concealed will be brought to light and made known to all.” If we are being honest many times we hide things not only because we worry about what others will think but if we hide it and forget it then it will go away. We can make it to church, serve, and quietly slip in and out. No one would even know that your heart is screaming on the inside BUT CAN WE WAKE UP because be hiding the reality, hiding the mess on the inside thing we do is only hurting ourselves. When we aren’t honest GOD CANT FIX WHAT WE FAKE AND WHAT WE HIDE.
Our heart becomes hardened. Hardened by pain, hurt, and bitterness. Being honest isn’t meant to expose you hurt you shame you or make you feel weak, its meant to heal you. The enemy wants you to lock everything inside wants to make you feel alone in your situation your pain in your issue BUT ONCE WE SPEAK IT OUT ONCE WE LET IT OUT THEN GOD CAN HEAL IT THE ENEMY HAS NO FOOTHOLD. He cant hold it over your head like this elephant in every single room you walk in. Man I was so good at hiding. I remember I had so many elephants in my room. I was sitting in abuse and sitting in an eating disorder that no one in the world knew about. Each day I walked with the burdens on my shoulders the harder it became to walk. We are not made to do this alone.
Let today mark the day that we get honest with ourselves, with God, and with each other. Today be the step we take to receive true healing.
Today we can begin to carry our trial as a weapon not as a open wound. We get to stop bleeding on everything we come in reach with. We can stop bleeding and blaming and bitter. Today decide to give it to God.
- Do not carry the weight on your shoulders, give it to God.
- PRAY.SPEAK.BE OPEN.Stop hiding things.
- Give yourself time to heal. It takes time do not get discouraged.
- Work on your self before working on others.
- Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
- Proverbs 4:20-22 Listen carefully to my words.Don’t lose sight of them. Let them penetrate deep into your heart, for they bring life to those who find them, and healing to their whole body.
- Isaiah 41:10 “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”